it will get worse before it gets better

well thats what they say, and from my experience it's spot on!!
so yesterday morning i play my usual $2.25 turbo, as normal i play it tight ish early on get some good hands make a break then wait.... so we get down to last 4 fairly uneventfully but i now av stack size or little below there one guy who as normal way out ahead of everyone, cant remember much of this but we get down to 3 so in the money again!! nice getting some consistency just need to improve on my 3rd places to some 2nd's or 1st's!!

anyway so its mostly raise/fold take a pot uncontested i am 2nd in chips and 3rd is just hanging in above the blinds!!
in the BB i get AJhearts, ok surely this has to be my hand i think, chip leader on button folds so it's on the short stack in SB, he makes up the blind..... now by this stage as usual its pretty much crap the blinds are so big that there no play in it, your either more or less all in or fold, so as i against the small stack with a decent hand i figure lets press him if he folds then at least i got the blinds if not i must be at least a slight favourite!!
so i raise him all in he calls and turns over K10off, flop comes 9,7,3.. so far so good, turn ...9 superb the board pairs means i am def well ahead there's no flush or str8 so just gotta avoid his 6 outs (3kings,310's) so i gota lotta outs on my side.... long pause and the river??? do i even need to say..

a god damn KING!!!!!!! well that just crippled me, i was all in next hand with absolute toss and no surprise there i out in 3rd!!

so from 4 tourny's i have three 3rd's & a 4th, not bad but could be better, every time i get to last 3 the blinds just don't allow any play... so do i need to make some moves before that to build up my stack/take a few chances to knock some guys out sooner and get more of a lead?? or is it just my decision making in the last 3???
maybe i don't need to just push it in with a good hand?? but if i raise i got so little left what the point of leaving it behind in first place, also by lumping it all in surely that more of a reason for the other player not to call ??

then i did my specialty, i hopped on a cash table near the end of the tourny, however, this time i played tight and when i made a str8 i got the money and nearly doubled up to $7.30 so all i had to do was leave the table then and would have been over my $50 deposit for the first time...
what id i do u may ask???
well i though i will just wait for one more orbit then go, despite being late for work already!!
so virtually the last hand i get J9suited, not great but with no real action i decide a nice little community pot is offering just the right odds so i call
flop comes a beautiful 10,Q,3 so i have open str8 draw and the checks to me make think i could get this one, so i mini bet, a few callers and a fold, so now i thinking that could be behind but if i can hit my 8 or king i can take it, turn is no help this time someone leads out with bout 60c, now i think i not got the odds however i know implied odds mean that i cam call if i think i gonna get there cash when i hit my card, so...
i call praying for my cards to come good, .....alas no king or 8 on the river so i fold when the betting starts again a small profit becomes a small loss and i now stand at about $48.70

bugger!! these silly hands i stopping me from building my roll, i gotta do something bout it!!

now it gets even worse, today i load up full tilt, join my usual $2.25 turbo, waiting for it to fill up... it does,.... the table opens.... then nothing!! it like the 1st prob i had no cards, no avatars and worst of all no play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i emailed full tilt support, got the usual auto reply, when i logged off i was 4th from the 5 remaining but just under 1000 so i pretty sure i couldn't have made any money even though i wasn't actually playing.

will let you know what happens later

PK69